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Thursday, January 27, 2011

Your words, like knives
Oh how
Oh how they cut and slice

To Hell I Went, and All I Got was This Broken Heart

Our time is over 
Thank God for that 
Oh you sure did teach me a lesson 
Oh how i learned it too 
I guess this world aint so beautiful 
Cuz damn boy u are UGLY
and how the sight of you I loathe
I toss you into the sun and you hide 
I would too if my heart looked like yours
Be gone you horrendous thing
I have learned my lesson one too many times 
and now I will throw you to the dogs 
throw you to the dogs like a rejected serving 
I reject you 
and this time don't come back 
Cuz what we had was an illusion
It may have felt like heaven 
But the demons inside you hid so well
and hell is not where i shall reside
too hot of a place 
too much of a waste 
you were a waste

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

So i havent done a tattoo post in a while and i have been wanting one so badly but the grandpa is totally against it so im goin to be a good kid and wait till later :)


Saturday, January 22, 2011

State of the Art

I found this artist C.S. Neal and now I am obsessed I want to hang this stuff in my apartment

Tradition Wears a Snowy Beard, Romance is Always Young

I should be getting ready but I am not
Instead I am realizing that I have a secret obsession
with guys who have full beards or really any gruffness

This is a picture from an artist that I have fallen in love with Betsy Walton

MMMM Jake :)

This is from an Etsy shop called KeepCalmArsenal

And finally the love of my life 

Thursday, January 20, 2011

They Say Never Regret, But How Could I Not

Im sorry for what I did to you
I said Im sorry
I sat there and let you believe I loved you
I didnt
I didnt at all and I knew it
I took your heart and I crushed it
I went behind your back and did things you still dont even know about
I hate myself for it
I did it
I did it all the same
Im sorry for that
I regret it now
I regret it now that it has happened to me
I know this is what you want to hear
I know it is because these are the same words I wish would come out of his mouth
I am sorry
I now am thankful for you
I am thankful for you in a way that I should have been when we were together
I know you still hate me
I dont blame you
I still hate the one who did this to me
I just want you to know
I want you to know that I would change it
I wouldnt hurt you
I was in denial all this time
I am sorry
I am sorry and that is all
I miss you

Friday, January 14, 2011

LIfe or Death

So in my massive amount of boredom today waiting for my friend
I did something a tad out of character
I wrote a list of things I want to do before I die
of course this list will change
only additions ideally but here it goes

1. Go to a major worldwide sporting event : World Cup, Olympics, ect...
2. Have a Huge party and invite every single person I know and see who shows up
3. Have my portrait painted
4. Make an original work of art
5. Learn to speak a foreign language and use it
6. Go Skinny dipping in the Agean Sea
7. Be an Extra in a film
8. Write down the story of my life in great detail leaving nothing out
9. Own a home looking onto the ocean
10. Brew my own beer
11. Experience Octoberfest in Germany
12. Learn how to take a compliment gracefully
13. Get in the car and just drive until I am lost
14. Get on a plane and just go without warning
15. Buy a house for my mother
16. Buy a dozen roses for my grandmother and tell her I love her
17. Forgive my father
18. Keep in touch with my sisters
19. Write a love letter and send it in a bottle
20. Plant a garden and keep up with it
21. Live in the middle of a large city
22. Live in the country
23. Learn to speak my mind, gracefully
24. Write a fan letter
25. Wait tables for nearly a year of my life
26. Run a marathon or participate in a triathalon
27. Learn to ski or snowboard
28. Trace my family back as far as I can
29. Go to the top of the Statue of Liberty
30. Give to charity and don't take the credit
31. Donate to a school and have your name on something
32. Go hunting and eat what I catch
33. Visit the Holy Land
34. Visit a Concentration Camp
35. Go up an Escalator facing down
36. Go to Vegas and loose it all
37. Teach someone to read
38. Spend the night in a haunted house
39. Own a timeless and expensive piece of jewelry
40. Learn to play the piano
41. Learn to read music
42. Visit every state at least once
43. Live in Mexico for a year
44. Walk up to a man and ask him on a date
45. Kiss a stranger
46. Visit Every Continent
50. Learn to SAMBA
51. Be in a play
52. Take a class after I retire
53. Drive the entire Autobahn
54. Spend Christmas in Australia
55. Buy and Old home remodel it and give it to a needy family
56. Build my own house how I want it
57. Go spelunking
58. Visit the Great Barrier Reef
59. Get my diving license
60. Get my racing license
61. Race a very fast car
62. Get in a fighter Jet and break the sound barrier

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Id rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not

So I have recently come to realization that I can't make everyone happy
And also that me being nice gets me nothing other than people being fake
So I'm done
No more letting people walk all over me
No more being nice because I don't want people to get mad at me
If you don't like me
Well then go the Fuck Away
Because I honestly can't stand you anyway
I just am nice because I don't want to cause a scene
From now on I'm doing things for me
I'm doing what makes me happy
What I want to do
And anyone who doesn't like it can go suck a dick :)

Abandoned by Reason

So I went to Austin to visit a friend of mine 
Im in love with it 
well anyways 
on my way back I came across an abandoned biofuel building 
actually idk if it was abandoned or just really unorganized 
but anyways I of course stopped and went to take pics