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Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present.

Back home for thanksgiving
but feeling a little romantic tonight
although i dont know why
cant seem to find someone who can catch my attention
and if they do catch my attention then it seems that
they just cant make me happy for one reason or another
just want to be done
friends is what i think i will have to settle for ...
sad that other girls fuck shit up for us sane ones lol


Sunday, November 21, 2010

Thursday, November 18, 2010

The truth of the matter is that I
I ....
How is it not apparent?
The way I act around you that
I Like....
Its almost hard for me to say
Cuz I dont know if u feel the same way
But I
I Like You ...
There I said it
But this will take a toll on me im sure
When I look back upon this
Because all you are is trouble
All you are is a mess
I Like You...
You make me happy
At least for now
How confusing you can be though
Never knowing
Never knowing what you are thinking
or feeling
What you say telling me something different from how you act
Back and Forth I go
But the truth of the matter is that I
I Like You... A Lot

Monday, November 15, 2010

But on a lighter note
maybe its everything that has been going on but i reaalllllllllyyyyy want one now

To top off my list of most wanted dogs
is the Agouti Husky

Next in line is a Pitbull :)

mmmm a German Shepherd 
Always loved them 


and last but not least 
the Rhodesian Ridgeback

No Title Needed, Its in the Words.

Cant sleep...
or maybe it is just that I have a lot on my mind 
same things coming back to haunt me 
makes it hard to do anything
makes it hard to sleep 
or think 
or feel... 
feel anything 
just a mess
a mess of constant thought 
constant distractions buzzing in my head 
like a television
but instead of beautiful scenes 
just static 
just static with the occasional scene of horror flashing upon the screen
how is any of this logical 
how is what you are thinking logical
to you 
to anyone?
and even if logic wasn't a part of it 
how is what you are feeling is not painful 
knowing that you do it 
knowing that you hurt 
enjoyable to you? 
thats the only reasonable explanation to me
and to top it all off 
I have someone else
but there are times where you even ruin that for me
one message from you and that it all it takes for the buzzing 
the buzzing that I had pushed back so well 
to come roaring forward at an alarming volume
bursting my eardrums 
bursting my thoughts 
bursting any shred of emotion
a burst that pushes me back into being scared 
being scared to tell anyone anything about me 
scared to put myself in a position where I could get hurt by another like you
scared to say the words that I want to say
I hate this 
I hate you 
its tragic.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

"Tears are the words that the heart cant express"

Not the Best of days today ...
Things from my past are coming back to haunt me
and now I sit on edge
Why is all I can ask
and emptiness is all I will get in return
It seems to be a moving cycle
Ups and Downs
You love me
and then you act like u cant stand the thought of me
Then do tell me why you keep coming back around
And I wish I could have said no before
But you have turned me
Turned me into a different person
Callous to everything that I once loved
How can I trust after what you did
And how do you expect me to even speak to you again
I wont
I'm not putting myself through that again
I'm over you and your immature games
I'm over you and your arrogant attitude
Grow Up!
You don't know everything
You aren't a God
But the thing that I want to tell you the most is
I'm done with you
I'm done with the way u make me feel
I'm done with the constant back and forth
I'm done with you pushing me down
U broke me
U hurt me
made me cry
and now I have nothing in me anymore
No energy to try again
No energy to feel again

If only I could say that I wish the best for you
But I don't
Because its pointless
You will end up cold and heartless
More than you already are now
You will end up Alone
Eventually they will all realize you are a hopeless mess
Seriously fucked up in the head
And your looks will fade and then what will you have
Nothing but your Psych books and your trendy clothing
So no I don't wish you the best
Because it will never happen
You wont let it happen
So I say to you
And this time for good!

Friday, November 5, 2010

“If honor be your clothing, the suit will last a lifetime; but if clothing be your honor, it will soon be worn threadbare”

Hmm I wish I had millions to spend on clothes
But I dont so I have to settle for window shopping
or in this case screen shopping i suppose ...
My top 3 are
Motorcycle Boots
Leather Leggings
and a Chunky Sweater :)

"Reason Can Answer Questions, but Imagination Has to Ask Them"

Who am I?
What Am I doing here?
Am I running?
Why? Why would I be running?
And what would I be running from?
I feel like I am running
How? I don't know
I feel like I should feel bad
But then how come I dont?
I feel great
But Is it only temporary?
Is this running my temporary high before I plunge down
Back down into questions..
Who Am I?
I dont know
What Am I doing Here?
And as for Running...

Thursday, November 4, 2010

And a Miserable Day to you Too

I have been slacking
I find soo much and Im just too lazy to post it but Im going to try to knock it out now
As i procrastinate on my studies
I found this artist out of Australia named Craig Redman
He has a bunch of different stuff but here are my favorites

^^ I want this hanging in my apartment :)  ^^

^^ Would so buy these ASAP^^
 Its like never ending want cuz I want one of the lighters too 

Click his name for a link to the website