No Title Needed, Its in the Words.

Cant sleep...

INSOMNIATIC 

or maybe it is just that I have a lot on my mind 

same things coming back to haunt me 

makes it hard to do anything

makes it hard to sleep 

or think 

or feel... 

feel anything 

just a mess

a mess of constant thought 

constant distractions buzzing in my head 

like a television

but instead of beautiful scenes 

just static 

just static with the occasional scene of horror flashing upon the screen

how is any of this logical 

how is what you are thinking logical

to you 

to anyone?

and even if logic wasn't a part of it 

how is what you are feeling is not painful 

knowing that you do it 

knowing that you hurt 

enjoyable to you? 

thats the only reasonable explanation to me

and to top it all off 

I have someone else

but there are times where you even ruin that for me

one message from you and that it all it takes for the buzzing 

the buzzing that I had pushed back so well 

to come roaring forward at an alarming volume

bursting my eardrums 

bursting my thoughts 

bursting any shred of emotion

a burst that pushes me back into being scared 

being scared to tell anyone anything about me 

scared to put myself in a position where I could get hurt by another like you

scared to say the words that I want to say

I hate this 

I hate you 

its tragic.